Changes

I have really done a lot of thinking lately about my 2010 goals. I know i have good ones set but there is more that i want to accomplish and bigger ones that i want to get to first. I was raised in a christian home and went to church regularly but for some reason it stopped and i never had the desire to go back. Ryan was raised in church as well by his grandparents and he stopped going after his aunt said something to him he didn't like when he was younger. I have done alot of thinking about how hard 2009 was for us. We started off the year with him being unemployed for 3 months after we had just gotten married 2 months before. We wound up living with his parents instead of moving out on our own and our only means of transportation went out. Now im not just focusing on the bad but i did have quite a few blessings for 2009 like me finally getting my learners permit and getting my license, Ryan finding a job in April, we got the altima in June so i can't say it was a completely bad year for us but there were some rock bottom times. I want 2010 to be better and i want to start off right. This year God blessed us with him keeping his job, we are getting alot of our bills paid down and ryan will start his CDL school soon. Although all that is great i still feel like im missing something and i really feel what im missing is church and God again.  Another one of my 2010 goals is i want to start going to church again and reconnect with God. This may sound bad but i may wind up going alone for a while and im hoping that Ryan will come around and maybe we can go together as a couple. I really think it would do our marriage some good as well as our lives.


Some of you know that my marriage has been really rocky these past few months and there were times i didn't think we were going to make it, but by a miracle we are still holding on. I have looked back at our life together and the past 2 1/2 years we have been together and it makes me really want that back. The happiness, the laughter, the talking and just loving each other. I'm not saying its completely gone from our relationship but its not always there like it should be. So my other 2010 goal is to be a better wife and really put in the effort to try to fix things and i think I'm off to a pretty good start. I recently came across a blog called Women's Marriage Ministry and i really did like the first couple post i read and they really touched my heart, it was almost like they were speaking to me. Also i fount some very useful tips and books on there as well. Starting next week im going to be doing the Love & Respect 14 Day Challenge and reading "Love & Respect" and "Strengthening Your Marriage". As well as going to a church sermon with his grandparents at his childhood church, I'm going to mention it to him and see if he even seems interested in going but if not i wont press the issue.

Im really hoping this can help me start on the right road and maybe help someone else out there in my situation. Im really focused on my goals for 2010 and i hope to be able to achieve them all. Also when i start my 14 day challenge i will be updating here to let you all know how it goes! Until then take care and God Bless!